Breaking Me Down (rebuilt)

(c) 2019

Words and Music by Robert Elessar

Produced and performed by Robert Elessar

I sit alone at home sometimes and want to go berserk
But doing that just never seems to work
The shelves are stacked with books but I don’t feel that I could read
While all around a thousand phantoms lurk

I drink a little wine; I eat a little meat
I wonder why I’m shivering in such infernal heat
I feel a little tired; my head’s a little light
I wish that I could close my eyes and block my inner sight.

If you could see me now, you’d probably wonder where I’ve been
But I stand and I fall
And I listen for your call
While hiding out inside the dragon’s den.

I wander ‘round through my internal night
I travel back and forth throughout the town
But if you ask, I’ll tell you I’m all right
My nervousness is just breaking me down.

I listen to the sounds of everybody having fun
I can’t join in ‘cause I don’t have a gun,
They’re scattering their ashes all along the motorway
Then scampering like rabbits on the run

I bounce off all the walls; I turn out all the lights
I always want to hit someone, but I never get in fights
I feel a bit confused; my thoughts are incomplete
There’s tingling in my fingers and there’s swelling in my feet

If you could hear what I hear you would deafen both your ears
But I can’t, and I know
That no matter where I go
I’m followed by the grinding of my gears.

I stare around in paranoiac fright
While grinning at my heartbreak like a clown
So don’t come in, and don’t turn on the light
It’s just my past mistakes breaking me down

I look at all the colors of the pictures in my mind
They’re all so dark, I might as well be blind
The path laid out ahead of me is so filled up with smoke
I think that I’d prefer to just rewind

I roam around the house; I drive around the town
I don’t know if I’m back and forth or if I’m up and down
I dive into the sea; I look into the sky
I try to understand them, but we can’t see eye to eye

If you could see inside my head, your own head would explode
But I nod, and I grin
At the end where I begin
And I smile, and I wave
When I pass an open grave
And I slump, and I sigh
When we have to say goodbye
I’ll see you at the ending of the road

I wander through the wasteland struck with blight
I make my Hell to wear an earthly crown
I smash all mirrors, I can’t stand the sight
Of everything that is breaking me down.

Catechism

Catechism

(c) 2019

Words and Music by Robert Elessar

Performed by Robert Elessar

Produced by Robert Elessar

 

The day is coming, can you hear it?
Night is falling, do you fear it?
The ship has sailed, now can you steer it?
Do you know what’s going on?
The moment’s passing, do you know it?
What’s your secret, will you show it?
When your chance comes, will you blow it?
Can you be relied upon?
I you can answer all these questions right,
You just might make it through that falling night.
But if these words just serve to turn your head,
The coming dark will bury you with dread.
The world is turning, can you feel it?
The wound is bleeding, can you heal it?
The truth is cloaked, can you reveal it?
I might come along with you.
The picture’s hidden, can you find it?
The tape is jammed, will you rewind it?
I must intrude now, do you mind it?
It’s just that I belong with you.
The world is not so hopeless, is it now?
Is that a statement that you might allow?
Just wipe the tears out of your eyes, won’t you?
To fight the truth, there’s nothing you can do.
The game is set, now can you play it?
The beast is charging, can you slay it?
If all your strength cannot delay it,
Then run away, just run and hide!
The path is clear, but will you hike it?
The cheek is turned, now will you strike it?
The song is over, did you like it?
Forget you heard it, it’s only lied.

Breaking Me Down (a song)

Words and music by Robert Elessar

(c) 2019 by Robert Elessar

All rights reserved

Performed by Robert Elessar

 

Okay, here it is, my new song, on which I’ve been working for some time now.  Technically, I’ve been working on it for thirty plus years (not without interruptions) since I first composed the melody and most of the words back when I was in college.  I never did anything with it until now, but obviously I hadn’t forgotten in, since this all came out of my memory – I haven’t seen the original words since I graduated from college, and I never wrote the music down.

I hope you enjoy it.  I think I’m getting a little bit better at the mixing and whatnot.

Exit Music (for a film) Karaoke

I want to make it clear that this is not, officially, one of my “bad cover” songs.  I did not do any of the background music; there are too many effects and layers and sound effects involved, which are beyond my current resources, or at least my current skills.

This is, however, one of my favorite songs, so I downloaded a karaoke backing of it (which was pretty good, I must say), and I just did the singing.

Of course, this song is by Radiohead, written by Radiohead’s members, originally for “Romeo and Juliet” and also appeared on “OK Computer.”  I own nothing.  I owe much.  The rest I leave to the poor.

Lyin’ Eyes (bad cover)

Okay, here’s yet another of my bad covers of good songs.  This one is one of my favorites, and is one of the first I learned to strum on an acoustic guitar.  There are issues with the mix/recording, of course, but it’s in tolerable state to let other people hear it, at least.

Of course, the words and music are by Glenn Frey and Don Henley, and I do not hold any rights to this.  It is an homage, and I make no money from it, nor will I.

[P.S. I just finished re-creating the lyrics and melody to a song I wrote in college called “Breaking Me Down”.  I plan to arrange and produce it soon.  I think it might even be pretty good.]

Audio Blog: If Trump and Amazon don’t pay taxes, why should you?

In this, more or less unplanned audio blog, I muse on questions of why anyone should pay taxes if those who benefit most from societal structures don’t, and on the nature of rules, the lack of natural justice, and the fact that the world only makes sense when you force it to do so.

How To Disappear Completely (bad cover)

I did an impromptu recording of this song with me playing the guitar and singing, before all the other ones I posted.  It wasn’t good enough to share with anyone but the best of friends, however, but it did give me some confidence.  So, now, I’ve put together at least a passable version worth posting.  I hope you like it.

Of the original song was performed by Radiohead, and was written by: Thom Yorke, Jonny Greenwood, Colin Greenwood, Ed O’Brien and Philip Selway, aka…well. Radiohead (duh!).  I do not own the rights and make no money off this.  It’s just for fun.